eat my feathers

Well, it's Wednesday and I have had 5 days off of school from the snow. Today was a half day and to be honest...it was pretty half hearted on my part. I just felt like I should still be at home curled up on the couch or playing in the snow with Austin and Mercie. I found myself wishing to be snowed in again! How awesome it was to be in the comfort of my little apartment. Ahhh sweetness. I probably would have eventually gotten bored and anxious. There was just so much to do and think about!

Lately I have been asking myself several questions. My heart does not feel content with what I already accept as the truth. Like, sometimes I know i don't know everything there is to know, so I will just pretend that what I already know is the truth. Lately, this is not acceptable. Questions of purpose, challenges, change and faith are running circles in my mind. They are running very gracefully. It is as if God himself is speaking to me very slowly and showing me a simple presentation- for now. I have this feeling it gets more intense!

I have been very brave lately. It is actually kind of scary how brave I feel! I mean if there was a weeny girl it would be me! I can be set in concrete of fear. Don't try to move me! But with the questions I have been asking this one keeps coming up- MELODY WHY ARE YOU SUCH A BABY? WHAT ARE YOU SO SCARED OF? YOU HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR! GET OUT OF THE COMFORT ZONE AND FOLLOW JESUS!- ok, so that is not really a question and it also is not grammatically correct. (one dollar to anyone who finds the error)

Have you ever heard anyone say that the things you are most afraid of are the things you were meant to do? Why would our flesh cry out or Satan use his manipulative tactics to scare us if it were something we were not meant to do? It comes down to this- we all know the truth. It is set in our hearts. Those questions of "what if I had just done it" exist for a reason.

When I think about how I want my life to be I think the word "adventure". Ironically, I am a chicken! CLUCK CLUCK! So satan, demons and self- you can stuff your hole with my chicken feathers FLYING AWAY FROM YOU. HA.

I do not want to live a life about ME. I want to live a life about Jesus. So, I am excited and terrified. I may need water wings for my first ocean excursion!

I can not shake the thought of seeing the world, experiencing life outside of what I know and sharing Jesus with the world. So, I won't shake this thought...but I will shake my body to the beat of life! (ok cheeeesy)

love and peace out mothas